There comes a point every so often that I just need a break. A break from the world, a break from people pestering me for this and that, a break from my friends. I just need to be me - go somewhere, experience something, do something - all on my own.
I have been working non-stop. I volunteered yesterday (amazing experience, by the way) and want to do more. I want to do my Rosetta Stone and become fluent. There are a lot of to-do's on my list and they don't involve the random shit I've been occupying my time doing. Being social has its disadvantages.
My mood has changed to include some bitterness. I don't understand the need for constant contact from friends. I feel you should be an addition to someone's life, not center yourself around it. I feel like that's how a few of my friends want me to treat them right now and I don't have the time or energy for it.
I want to go back to Italy and just be. I want to roam the streets, meet the friendly people, and soak in the sunshine.
As much as I'd like to work for the CC full time right now, I feel like I need to get out of the country, explore, and take an international position I've spoken of before.
I suppose the real question is why do I feel the need to get away so much? I felt the need to get out of Atlanta and move to a new city. I now feel the need to go bigger.
It's all part of my independence. It's all part of who I am.
I don't think that's going to change.
1 comment:
Oh Honey let me tell you that I know EXACTLY that feeling that you're talking about! You need to act on it, seriously it will be the best decision you ever make. I did and I met my husband (not that I was looking for him!) and he let's me be how I am and be as damned independent as I want to be. Seriously, embrace it! :)
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